Saturday, July 19, 2008
A Lovers Duet.... ♥ 8:42 PM
How come everytime you think you meet somebody special and think that that specific person is gonna make all the bumpy cracks in ur heart go away, they turn out to be the worst thing thats ever happened to you??? Why is it that when you want that person so much and you think that the way ur feeling is so right it all turns out to be juss a romantic lovers fantasy??? Is it possible to ginuwinely like someone and not get ur feelings hurt in return of showing emotion????
I met this what I thought was a real sweet honest guy... I liked his swagg and his style and I really wanted to see how far things between him and I would go... He everything I like in a guy... Tall as fuck, chocolate, sexy, real, honest and I trusted him with myself completely... We hung out for about a week and now tonight he was supposed to be coming over and now he isnt answering my phone calls or alerts at all.... Matter of fact lemme break it down so u'll understand where im coming from....
I was chilling with him last night and he asked me if my hair was all mine... like did i wear weave or extensions or was all that hair really all me... I told him yeah and he asked if he could touch it... I told him yeah and he started running his fingers thru my hair right???? He told me I should wear my hair down more often cause it made me look sexy and he loved my hair....
I talked to him earlier today and he told me he was chilling with his kids which he only gets to see once a week right?? So im like cool do what you do and we'll meet up inbetween a lil bit later on.... He told me to chirp him back later tonight.... Which I did.....
I took 2 hours outta my time to press my hair and curl it up real cute so i could wear it down juss cause he told me last night he liked it... and when i got done and dressed i chirped his phone and went straight thru his line and didnt get an answer... I alerted his phone 3 times and still no answer and see im not the type of chick to chase dick... I dont get an answer then that must mean something right???
Now im sitting up here wondering what the fuck happened??? Was all that juss a conquest??? Was he juss chilling with me to see how far things would go?? Or was it juss the thrill of the chase?? To know that for a fact I wanted him and wanted to be tangled up somewhere inbetween some sheets with him from the first moment I felt the tingles rushing crazily thru my spine coming from his fingertips.... I mean literally I actually thought what we had was a love jones turning into something bigger than the everday ordinary crush.... I dont know what the hell I was thinking....
I know its harder for me to find someone who wants me for me and wants to spend time with me cus thats what they'd want to be doing... Im not skinny... im darker toned... and I have a kid... so I mean when theres all these chicks out here that are ravishing and stunning I always wonder in the back of my mind what the fuck a guy wants from me when I dont really feel as if I have much to offer....
I guess what you can call this situation here is simply put as "A Lovers Duet (Misunderstanding From The First Quartette)"
The End.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Never Enough ♥ 11:06 PM
U know I honestly dont know why people always expect more of what you can do... I mean how much can one person actually do to please someone else or are we people programmed to always want more than whats already given?? If thats the way it is then we are living in a fucked up world... I know theres someone out there who feels me real talk....
Listen to this here.....
I went to the store tonight right?? The food stamps kicked in... I was thinking to myself "Nobody here at the house has eating anything but ramen noodles in 5 days" Its midnight... I leave the house already tired from working all day standing on my feet still in my work uniform and go to Walmart... Im up there early at 11pm and took my sister with me to make sure shes got food in her crib being pregnant and all... Get in the store and start shopping get everything I need and think everyone else might want... Get to the checkout with a full basket full of food and spent approximately $182.69 just on my food alone... Then pay $175.13 on my sisters food... Walk out the store and decide that since im walking cus I dont have a whip that im gonna take this basket home with me to get my food there and just return the basket to Walmart in the morning when I get up... Had to walk down a big ass hill with a full basket of food that was heavy as hell... I mean the basket was pulling me down that hill worse than a pitbull or 80mph winds...lol.... Get it home and ask my mom to put the food up for me so I could walk my sister and her basket of food home and she got up... but with a big ass attitude.... I mean come on now... i juss walked to Walmart at 11pm at night and got a basket full of food and u mean to tell me you cant put that shit in the fridge??? Thats fucked up.... I mean real talk, that shit hurt my feelings... Was I supposed to do it all myself???
Now im sitting here still in these sweaty ass clothes tired as hell with my feet hurting to triple max and having chest pains, hungry as hell, and juss pissed off....
Why do people always expect more than you already give?? Are you supposed to keep giving and giving and giving until the giving runs out?? When is it ur time to recieve??? Im doing the best I can here, and it always seems as if Im not doing anything that is benifitting anyone... I dont understand it.... Im hurt forreal....
The End.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
My Sisters Problematic Situation.... ♥ 8:04 PM
Ok what im wondering is howcome we women have to be so frugal and naive when it comes to men... I dont understand it... Maybe thats why im a Bisexual and sometimes I choose to be with the same sex cus I cant deal with the daily struggle of being classified as "Wifey 2 Him" Its too much for me...
My sister found her high school sweetheart about maybe 9 months ago... He came up here to Michigan to be with her in January. He knew before he came from Indiana that my sister was pregnant and gonna give birth to a child that wasnt biologically tied to him... He said that this was something he was prepared to accept... He had my sister thinking that they were juss gonna be this happy ass couple and have no problems and drama and be in love for the rest of their lives... Well guess what people?? That shit never panned out... Look at the date this was posted... Well today she has made up her mind and she is tired of the bullshit and said she was gonna put him out.... I was like damn girl you tired?? She was like yeah im tired of doing everything 8 months pregnant taking care of a grown ass man...
She told me about how he didnt want to get a job considering he had been here since January and hasnt found work yet... He is borderline Alcoholic... And has the shittiest attitude I've ever heard before... I mean my sister is out here everyday catching the bus back and forth to work making sure this nigga is fed and making sure he is comfortable with a roof over his head... And he has the audasity to ask her when shes gonna cook and clean the kitchen after she juss took her shoes off from working a 10 hour shift... I mean damn he juss dont give a damn about anything... Its all about him.. All he does is sit around all day while shes at work, drinking and playing video games and sleeping.... Thats what the fuck his whole life consists of... I know SAD right???
I asked her yesterday what the fuck she was doing... Like where is this relationship going and what are you getting out of it... I asked her what the last bill HE paid was and she told me he never has paid one since hes been in MI... im like damn girl... She is so close to having this baby and trying to balence parental life as a new 1st time mother and balencing a demanding ass job mustve hit her ass in the head and made reality set in forreal...
I dont judge people real talk but I couldnt be her... Cus instead of him being put out tonight it wouldve been two weeks after I saw he wasnt shit... I cant deal with somebody like that... i have a 2yr old son of my own and Im not taking care of any other dick but his... lol... Im not gon waste my time taking care of a grown ass man cus he tell me he love me... What the fuck has love got to do with it baybee?? Tina had that shit right when she sung that shit to Ike cus i mean really if I asked a lowlife man like hers, that question he wouldnt even be able to answer that shit... But look ya'll all I wanna say is when you in a relationship dont let that shit take over ya life and have you clueless... Dont take care of somebody who aint helping to take care of you as well... Cus that makes you look like the dummy and he aint with you cus he love you... he with you cus you are strictly a convenience to him... I mean what man wouldnt want a woman who cooked and cleaned and worked and payed the bills and all that shit?? I mean free food, free place to lay, free pussy... Shit I would take that shit... only if my momma didnt raise me with common courtesy and commen sense...
Signing off the situation.... Its not gonna be problematic for me... Over and Out Houston!!!
The End.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Silly People... U Making Me Famous... ♥ 4:07 PM
Howcome everytime I turn around this bitch and that bitch got something fucked up to say about me?? Why am I a popular topic?? Shit if I know... I been talked about my whole fuckin life and called a ho... Im tired of worry about that shit... If this bitch and that bitch wanna call me a ho then let it be said... I dont give two fucks no more...
I fucked this nigga and I fucked that nigga... O really?? Well if I did tell em to come to 3877 and fuck again considering they already had that shit... Ask em if that shit was good... I mean I know damn well my name taste good cus its always running of some bitch or some punk ass niggas tongue so thats not debatable...
I got more good things than one thats about to happen to me... And instead of paying rent and staying around bullshit ass people I will take that fuckin money and skip town... it only take about a good 2 grand to move and trust me baby I got it... Im about to start cutting bitches off left and right... Watch this shit happen....
Silly Nigga... Silly Bitch... U makin me famous... Keep talking... Im loving every minute of it.... Fuck with this bitch and get right cus U a fucking disgrace and waste of space... Im fucking done.........
The End.